a wonky life

“As I look around our world, I think ‘all or nothing thinking’ has become endemic in our society and flavours our everyday life. We are constantly driven to be one thing or another thing in a world in which ‘othering’ rather than honouring our differences is de rigueur.”

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://awonkylife.co.uk/2022/03/08/from-black-and-white-thinking-to-a-glorious-palette-of-greys/

“The stories I have been telling myself about this decision and role have been so powerful that it’s taken me months to admit to myself what I want. My imagined narratives are wide ranging but all have a familiar whiff of not enoughness and concern for external validation.”

I've been making decisions about my future and considering the things that are holding me back.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://awonkylife.co.uk/2022/02/23/coaching-the-coach-out-of-me/

“In a moment of uncharacteristic vulnerability, my husband asked me last night, “Why do you love me?”. “Well, because you are You.” I easily answered. Crest-fallen, he humphed a sad, slumped-shouldered, “Oh..”. Recognising his disappointment, I reassured him, “That’s absolutely the best thing I could have said.”.”

Why do we love people? Who are we actually? I have a think.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://awonkylife.co.uk/2022/02/09/because-you-are-you/

“Growing up, women of my generation were taught that our cycles were little more than inconvenience. It was more a case of managing the problems that could arise rather than learning the power of our biology.”

I've been having a think about knowing our own bodies in the context of menstruality.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://awonkylife.co.uk/2022/02/01/hello-darkness-my-old-friend-an-ovary-action/

“Even the most familiar subject can be elevated, enlightened and born again with a delicate, loving lexicon. I love exploring how other people see the world through reading and listening to them speak.”

I look at how important words are in my life and how I can learn from the words of others. 

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://awonkylife.co.uk/2022/01/30/more-than-words/

"Spirituality for me means getting reacquainted with our true selves, with our knowing, our soul, our consciousness, our essence. It means believing that there is something bigger than us out there that is common to all of us. I call it the universe; others call it spirit, god, or the divine. It means that I have hope that I can heal myself and that a lifetime of dysfunctional ego-led thinking can be remedied."

I have a think about what spirituality means to me now and how that differs to what I used to think it was. 

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://awonkylife.co.uk/2022/01/23/god-the-universe-and-everything-else/

Choosing sobriety. The final taboo?

"I learnt pretty quickly that alcohol was not only brilliant for lowering your inhibitions in social situations and allowing you to dance just like Britney Spears (I genuinely can remember times I was her living embodiment), it was also a brilliant way to ‘take the edge off’ the difficult things."

This week a tricky one - tackling the role of alcohol in my life......

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://awonkylife.co.uk/2022/01/18/choosing-sobriety-the-final-taboo%ef%bf%bc/

"For years, I now realise, whilst trying to please others, I had been repeatedly disappointing myself. I had willfully ignored what I wanted. No wonder I've struggled with feeling good about myself. I had been repeatedly telling myself to shut up and put up."

I explore being true to myself and choosing to disappoint others before myself.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://awonkylife.co.uk/2022/01/11/going-with-my-gut/

“We as parents can have huge impact on our children’s egoic, human minds but we will never be able to alter or edit their essence, their soul, their conscious mind even one jot. That is theirs, that is safe from our influence and that knowledge gives me great freedom.”

My children do not belong to me. They are their own people.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://awonkylife.co.uk/2021/12/06/you-are-not-mine/

“I am the observer of the world around me and I am the observer of my inner world: the thoughts of my personal mind and the emotions inside me. I suppose I am the custodian of this unique human life.”

I explore who I really am and my consciousness.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://awonkylife.co.uk/2021/11/30/what-am-i-being-here/

“The thing is for so many years now, I’ve squashed all the big feelings. They were all unwelcome visitors.”

I'm feeling things and it's pretty uncomfortable.

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://awonkylife.co.uk/2021/11/11/re-educating-lisa/

I try to understand why my childhood memory is so bad.

“She explained that rather than having irretrievable memories sitting dormant in the deepest recesses of her brain, she had simply not formed robust memories during much of her childhood. She explained she had become a master dissociator.”

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://awonkylife.co.uk/2021/11/16/dont-you-remember/

I am afraid. I explore why.

“The fear is not truly mine. The fear has arisen because I am daring to challenge the neatly arranged set of rules which I have amassed in a lifetime.”

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://awonkylife.co.uk/2021/11/10/feeling-the-fear-and-doing-it-my-way/